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21 May 2009 @ 23:52
It's Not Easy Being Green  
Remember how, way back in the early days of Star Trek: Voyager fandom, Megan and Jenny Delaney from Stellar Cartography were branded the sluts of the ship for daring to enjoy sex? Right, so I'm having flashbacks. Only this time, it's Gaila who's being called names in the blogsphere for, well... enjoying casual sex as much as James T Kirk does. And dood, GAILA IS AWESOME.

I'm too swamped to write at the moment, but I'm definitely up for hosting a good ole fashioned Commentfic Extravaganza. So if you want to write a little something (drabble, snippet, epic poetry, knock yourself out!) about Cadet Gaila, go ahead and post it here.


What the Monkey?svilleficrecs on 22nd May 2009 05:44 (UTC)
I posted this f-locked a bit ago, reposting it here makes sense. Context: In an interview, the writers said she was an escaped Orion Slave Girl, which I think makes her 10x as awesome. So, bit of her pre-escape life. WARNING: dark/disturbing concepts one might expect when writing about the backstory of an escaped sex slave.


She spends her earliest years on a farm. She is fed and watered and in turn, she feeds and waters the other livestock and tends crops and it's not until she's much older that she understands the irony. It's not until she's older that she understands what irony is. It's not until she's two years past the onset of puberty that she acquires a name, of sorts, but none of this is anything but normal for her and her kind. She is what she is. She doesn't question it. She also doesn't fly or shit rainbows. Why would she? It would never occur to her.

She is what she is.


One of her earliest memories is one of the other girls weeping in the toilets, trying desperately to rip out the hairs that are growing between her legs and under her arms. But the girl has been working the root crops for the last few weeks and her fingernails are worn down to nubs and she can't gain purchase on the downy little hairs.

She who will one day choose to be called Gaila doesn't really understand why her friend is so terrified of the hairs, but she has fingernails and teeth and if they are that bad, if they bring things that are that bad, she will rip them out for her friend. Gaila is a girl who is quiet and listens hard to all the things the other girls whisper. They talk of sleeping on their stomachs to slow the swelling in their chests. They talk of the ones who get taken away and never come back.

Gaila likes her life. She wants to stay here. She likes to feed the cows. She likes it when it gets warm and she's barefoot in the sunshine pushing holes in the dark dirt with her fingers, and counting out the seeds. She likes the way the sprouts that erupt in the springtime are sometimes the exact same color as her fingers. She loves brushing her fingers over the sprouts and watching them grow a little more each day.

She doesn't like the games that the guards play at night, but they're not always so bad. And she's better at being quiet than most of the girls.


It doesn't matter what you do. Hair grows, breasts grow, and one morning you wake up with bloody sheets and that's it. No more cows. No more strawberries and wheat and corn to peel the silk off of and make silly wigs from.

You belong in a new place now. You belong to a new person now. You learn to dance. You learn how to keep the perfect smile on your face no matter what. They don't like it when you cry, except for when they do. And the girl who will one day choose to be called Gaila learns how to do that as easily as smiling. It's funny, she thinks, how so many of them will take tears when it seems like they're looking for blood. A few tears and the right noises and they quit their looking. They don't want pain so much as the evidence of pain. It only takes her a couple times to get that, and after that, she learns the right noises.

Even better is when she learns that some of them want pain, and how to spot those ones and keep them so pleased they keep coming back. Giving pain is much easier than faking pain, and it has the added bonus of lessening the time you spend with those whose favorite game is to smash their toys. It is better to find the ones who prefer the toys with sharp teeth. It is smarter to find the ones who - in the quiet, secret, whispered bed games in the darkest night like to play at *being* toys. It is smarter to play with those toys until they are almost but not quite broken.

*They* make the keepers happy. They come back with sparkling gifts and silly promises and they make it so you get the good food and to sleep in so that when they return you can break them all over again all night long. Gaila gets it pretty quickly.

Gaila knows she is a toy. She knows, from keeping her mouth shut and listening, that she is a good toy. She would like to be a better toy in hopes that one day, she is something other than a toy. No one has ever told her that this is possible, but somehow, she knows deep down that it is. It must be.
lilacsigil: gailalilacsigil on 22nd May 2009 06:41 (UTC)
This is so tragic but so ferocious.
(no subject) - svilleficrecs on 22nd May 2009 17:34 (UTC) (Expand)
stoplookingup: buddha 2stoplookingup on 22nd May 2009 13:27 (UTC)
I cried. Really. Thank you for writing that.
(no subject) - svilleficrecs on 22nd May 2009 17:35 (UTC) (Expand)
Dances With Vampires: Gaila innocentyahtzee63 on 22nd May 2009 14:13 (UTC)
VERY nicely done. I am very proud of this Gaila for freeing herself.
(no subject) - svilleficrecs on 22nd May 2009 17:36 (UTC) (Expand)
Ayries: Gaila; look away swiftradioactivepiss on 22nd May 2009 15:35 (UTC)
That broke my heart, and kind of made me wish I cried at written prose more.

So brilliant.
(no subject) - svilleficrecs on 22nd May 2009 17:36 (UTC) (Expand)
ljc: star trek (gaila is awesome)taraljc on 22nd May 2009 15:49 (UTC)
Now I want to see Gaila at the Kirk's farm in Iowa. *hugs her tight*
(no subject) - svilleficrecs on 22nd May 2009 17:37 (UTC) (Expand)
Valerie - Postmodern Pollyanna: gailawiliqueen on 22nd May 2009 17:12 (UTC)
Wow. (The "squee" I added to the icon you so kindly shared is wholly inappropriate, and yet somehow not). This is AMAZING and made me cry.
(no subject) - svilleficrecs on 22nd May 2009 17:38 (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - wiliqueen on 22nd May 2009 18:18 (UTC) (Expand)
The Proverbial Bull in a China Shop...: Uhurasabaceanbabe on 22nd May 2009 18:16 (UTC)
Ouch. Painful, but so very well done.
allaine77: pic#49107002allaine77 on 22nd May 2009 20:00 (UTC)
It's good, and I know what the writers said she was . . .

But I was under the impression (and granted, I got this off a site a few weeks ago) that, according to canon, Orion women are slave girls in name only, and that in fact they use the pheromones their bodies produce to gradually take control of their "masters". And that they preserve the fiction of the "Orion slave girl" in order to keep this a secret.

(I realize that canon was shot out of a howitzer in the movie, but I don't see how changing Kirk's past would change an unrelated planet's society.)

Sincerely, Allaine
(no subject) - svilleficrecs on 22nd May 2009 20:56 (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - taraljc on 22nd May 2009 21:05 (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - beatrice_otter on 23rd May 2009 05:22 (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - svilleficrecs on 23rd May 2009 06:22 (UTC) (Expand)
J: bloody Kirkjadecanary on 22nd May 2009 20:03 (UTC)
Oh my goodness, this is both awful and amazing and painful and heart-wrenching.
(no subject) - jadecanary on 22nd May 2009 20:03 (UTC) (Expand)
Top: STXI: The only Orion in Starfleettopazera on 22nd May 2009 23:43 (UTC)
Oh wow, I love it. I read Orci's comment about Gaila being an escaped slave girl and I was hoping to see someone take on her backstory like this. You did a fantastic job with it. I really like how Gaila is very perceptive and a quick learner and that's what serves her well no matter what her perspective. The third section kind of ripped my heart out. And the ending of the second section/beginning of the third was beautiful, especially "She likes the way the sprouts that erupt in the springtime are sometimes the exact same color as her fingers."

Thanks for sharing this here! I'm really glad I got a chance to read it. :D
JagfanLJ: Lovejagfanlj on 23rd May 2009 02:13 (UTC)
Oh my, I want more of this!
I haven't seen the movie yet. In fact, I wasn't even going to click on this,because I don't like spoilers. Fortunately, I was too curious about her character to resist. The story is splendid. I liked the character and the idea that she was strong enough to endure and bright enough to figure out how to improve her lot in that world.

What really got me, is that knowing the previous versions of the Orion lore didn't break my suspension of disbelief. I found myself contemplating different races on Orion, or a mutation/genetic defect. A world in which women born without the right pheromones are on a par with the men, possibly below them.
Rhirhipowered on 23rd May 2009 02:35 (UTC)
Wow. Just...wow.

I really just want more, I want to know what this version of her did to get away. Thank you for sharing.
Darkrosedarkrosetiger on 23rd May 2009 02:39 (UTC)
This is incredibly sad, but you make it hopeful in the end. It's wonderful.

I hate to ask for "more", because it feels so presumptuous, but if you *did* ever write more, I'd be so there.
Shooting You with My Smilebox_in_the_box on 23rd May 2009 04:05 (UTC)
Poetic descriptions coupled with a heart-rending account of one girl's (for lack of a better term) dehumanization. This hit me like a punch in the gut.
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